I woke up at four this morning from a very strange dream.

My youngest and I were wandering around a hospital. A field trip or something, I’m not really sure why we were there. We weren’t together when the dream started (or at least where what I can remember started). We met back up near the bathrooms and he told me he has something to show me. Intrigued I followed him to a locked ward, the one my dad is in. Somehow, my kid had a badge to let us in. I guess he wanted me to see my dad, and how he was doing. But, my dad wasn’t there. He was dead, and the hospital hadn’t bothered to tell me. I wasn’t really sad he was gone, just angry that no one told me. The staff was trying to help me find his stuff when I woke up.

Now, here’s the weirdest part. My dad has been dead since February. He didn’t die in a hospital, but in a hospice home. I’m not really sure what I was supposed to take from this dream.

Unfortunately though, it woke my brain up enough to start freaking out about all that needs to be done, and more specifically all the money I need to earn in the next month. Even more specifically, the money I need to have by Friday so that I can make sure I have tickets to my youngest child’s opening night. Then on to how I have to pay the people suing me, and how I am going to find that money. And how the only real hours I have to work are 9-2, and that most (if not all) places won’t hire me for those hours.

It was a lot of thinking and dread to come at me at four am. Meant I wasn’t getting back to sleep. So here I am, scrolling job ads, working on my meditation course so I can get it ready to launch, and writing this blog post. All using my phone’s hot spot, because of course my internet won’t work this morning.

Now I need some positivity flowing into my day. I’m going to spend a few minutes meditating, eat a good breakfast, and journal.

My bright spot – My youngest got the role he wanted in his first ever non school play. We are both very excited. Rehearsals started yesterday!

I would love if you would share your bright spots with me!